It is amazing how some people change after a life altering event. This past week I was told that I'm going to be needing a defibrillator/pace-maker implanted in order to prevent sudden death if my heart were to stop. My doctor told me that my heart is functioning at about 35%, maybe a little more. Apparently, if you get below 45% you are at risk of sudden death from a heart stoppage.
I always wondered how I'd react to getting news such as this. So now I know. I've got to tell you that I'm a little afraid but I am going to go ahead and live my life just like I've been doing and not worry about death. I know where I'll be heading if I die, there is no doubt in my mind that I've got a better home waiting on me when I pass from this life. I certainly don't want to go anytime soon, I've got two children at home that I home school who need their daddy really bad. I've got a wife and two grown children that would probably like to see their daddy/husband stay around a few more years. I've got so much to look forward to whether or not it's here on earth or on the other side.
Any of you who know me know that I smoked for many years. At this point in my life I'm not going to go on a pity-party and start feeling sorry for myself. I've done this too myself and cannot now start the "oh-poor-me" act. I'm also a type A personality and am really intense. I've been told that this is not good for the heart either. I'll say this much. I will get the pace-maker/defibrillator installed but I'm not going to quit living just because of that. My hope is to die while I'm doing something I really like to do; leading singing at church,coaching basketball, watching an OU football game, or at some other equally exciting event. I figure we all have a finite time on this earth anyway and so we must try to enjoy our short life as much as we can.
I will keep posting on my blog until I have no more to say. I've been really busy with basketball season and work these last few weeks and have not been able to post like I normally do. I've got lots to say about lots of things and I'll be getting to those things just as soon as I can. Each of you please keep me in your prayers, Lord knows I could use all the help I can get:) I've got a lot to do and I plan to keep doing everything I can till the Lord calls me home. Hopefully, that will be when I'm about 85 or so. I'm to ornery to go out now!:)
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